I have spent the last couple weeks working on me. Therapy is for that granted, but sometimes you have to just sit down and breathe a little bit and enjoy the current surroundings. I look at my life and realize there is so much wrong with manipulating people into what you want them to believe. Contrary to the general census of people, we all expect to look at each other like we did something wrong, when in fact most of us are good wholesome people.
I can't help thinking that even as an actor, i am still trying to manipulate people. Obviously in the beginning i want that, Because i want them to think i am the character they see on television or Film. But as an individual of integrity i don't think its fair to not admit that I'm gay. By the time I reach the big budget films, this kind of thing wont matter but right now it does, so for my own sanity, that is my answer. So yes, there is a "Human Rights" sticker on the back of my car now and will stay there. I would rather be a man of integrity and not manipulation.
So on another note, I know I talk about my friends like they are gifts from heaven, but they are.
Tonight i was at my friend Nikki's Singing competition. Nikki is also a fellow actor as well as an amazing singer. To see him on stage only made me want to get up and start performing as well. I think that is the difference between an actor and an aspiring individual. We all may want it but the truth is how much.
2 auditions and now a callback has me all excited again. I really love doing this and the way i performed today has no reason to doubt how acting makes me feel. Although the call back was for a paranoid meth addict, I still soaked up every minute. I can't wait to see how the other one turned out.
Anywho, thats all for now. See you in the Movies:)
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