Homophobia in the Gay Community...and other fine tidbits

Prejudice is an emotion that won't stop the earth from spinning, but hate can and prejudice is just a gateway to hate. The world isn't perfect, we all know this, but we can change so much about how we treat each other especially our own community. I know when i came out of the closet, i lost not only my friends but my family. the Gay community was and is my family and support system next to the couple of people I rely on as close personal support. I can only imagine the people who solely rely on the gay community for guidance and support.

We all leave a life full of hate and prejudice, whether it is family or some of the public, but isn't ironic that as a community we are willing to be just as hateful toward certain people in the community, such as flaming gays or drag queens? We look at most of them like they are our gay comedians. In fact one gay once said," man i wish they would just not be crazy open about it. " My friends, there is something very wrong with that statement. The more we look each other with the same hate we were thrown, the less mature we all will grow. If we can learn to accept each other for what we can give each other, we can accept everything about ourselves...

Ok, enough of that rant, so I got the chance to go to my old roomies bday party and it was a blast. I haven't had that much fun in forever. So fun! I am also looking forward to a photo shoot in july where i will play a young character from the cast of "Gilligan's Island." Also My good friend Mark is producing a 24 hour film I plan on working with him on.

Well after my rant, Im Tired. But I would like to announce my new short story i have begun called "Millionaire Man."

Well thats all for now! See you in the Movies:)

Integrity Vs Manipulation

I have spent the last couple weeks working on me. Therapy is for that granted, but sometimes you have to just sit down and breathe a little bit and enjoy the current surroundings. I look at my life and realize there is so much wrong with manipulating people into what you want them to believe. Contrary to the general census of people, we all expect to look at each other like we did something wrong, when in fact most of us are good wholesome people.

I can't help thinking that even as an actor, i am still trying to manipulate people. Obviously in the beginning i want that, Because i want them to think i am the character they see on television or Film. But as an individual of integrity i don't think its fair to not admit that I'm gay. By the time I reach the big budget films, this kind of thing wont matter but right now it does, so for my own sanity, that is my answer. So yes, there is a "Human Rights" sticker on the back of my car now and will stay there. I would rather be a man of integrity and not manipulation.

So on another note, I know I talk about my friends like they are gifts from heaven, but they are.

Tonight i was at my friend Nikki's Singing competition. Nikki is also a fellow actor as well as an amazing singer. To see him on stage only made me want to get up and start performing as well. I think that is the difference between an actor and an aspiring individual. We all may want it but the truth is how much.

2 auditions and now a callback has me all excited again. I really love doing this and the way i performed today has no reason to doubt how acting makes me feel. Although the call back was for a paranoid meth addict, I still soaked up every minute. I can't wait to see how the other one turned out.

Anywho, thats all for now. See you in the Movies:)